Music is such a huge part of my life. I believe that for whatever event/emotion/trial/joy in life, there is a song that can be matched with it. Somehow songs can express things mere words cannot. I'm listening to a song right now called "Rain Down". There is a part where it says, "My heart is dry, but still I'm singing...." That's exactly how I feel right now. I must admit, the reason my heart feels dry is entirely my fault. For some reason, I have let myself believe that I can make it just fine without surrendering things I'm dealing with to God. Ever since moving down here, I've felt distant from the Lord, which is to be expected, but I haven't gone after God any harder. Tonight two great friends came to my apartment for a time of prayer and worship. I actually started to believe that I didn't need fellowship anymore, isn't that sad. Being in a new environment, with new people and new situations, I expected to draw closer to God. I haven't though; my heart is dry. That song has put a new spin on things... I truly do want to KEEP SINGING even when I can't feel God or understand why things are the way they are in my life.
The song ends by saying, "DO NOT SHUT the Heavens, but open up our hearts...." That's my desire tonight. I won't always get it right, but I am KNOW that God will keep loving me, and I know the Heavens will never be shut....
:-) "Where the freedom of the Lord is, there is freedom..." -2 corinthians 3:17
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
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